Looking Forward

So I realized (especially lately) I am always counting down for something. Counting down for a holiday, counting down for a girls night out, counting down for sushi & vanilla ice cream nights, counting down for the launch event of a project... List goes on and on. With everything going on, I am stopping myself once in a while and looking back. Here is what I am feeling:

Wow, how the hell time passed this quickly... and how full of laughter, happiness, events, celebrations, partying and traveling of it. Do I want to stop? Certainly not. Looking forward to travels, things, feelings, dates, girls nights, kisses and texts is what makes it this valuable and priceless. Only trick here is to stop. Not to stop looking forward. But stopping to realize what is going on without questioning, worrying, details and enjoying the moment. Realize your feelings, the sun on your skin, the breeze as you are running, the moment makes you smile, taste of that delicious food, laughter you are sharing.

At the end, it is good be a free soul, not making plans, and living the moment as long as you know how far you can stretch.

Friday, Holiday & Happiness

I woke up super happy today. I put on a summery dress, went out walking in the sunny weather to work. Got croissants for myself and friends from the Italian bakery in the corner. Came work and started working. Tasks and projects seems to be easily flying away with my mood. 

I don't know if it is because I am already done with most of my packing one day in advance of my travel (for the first time!), the dinner date I have tonight, or maybe simply it is Friday. Or it is the combination of all.

I am thinking how can I have more days like this. Is it the external conditions that sets this cheerful girl inside of me? Or does it come deep within? I think one should be able to make it come from inside which in turn will effect the outside factors.

If you are not a happy person inside, if you cannot find happiness inside by yourself, no matter what happens around you, it wouldn't be ever enough for you. You would maybe be more materialistic. Finding that point inside is not an easy one. Comes with a lot of experiences, listening to yourself, knowing what you really want. And no. I haven't been able to keep that everyday. I don't think it is human to be that optimistic. Nothing is that pink in real life. It is just the matter of remembering that you are the control of your happiness even in times it seems out of your hands.

I can't wait for tonight, I can't wait for tomorrow. I will be toes in the sand, sun in my hand as of tomorrow, breathing the sea breeze.

Cheers to that! And Happy Friday!